I suck

Yep o well, Im pretty bored and its getting hard to stay motivated. But that is what I do get excited then suck. And Im Hungry but im not going to close the shop just to go eat. Stupid and there is nothing to eat up there anyways. So just dont bother. Ill just sit here and ramble on so it takes my mind away. Because if I dont ruin it and eat crap I will feel good about my self and that is definatly what I need. I think when I feel crappy i start to think I look crappy. But when i feel good I think i look ok. My head is a big part of me lossing weight. I need to feel good to do good. and right now i just dont'. Ive been looking up inspiration and reading sucess stories and nothing is working. Mabey its cause im working all the time and it sucks. I need to think happy things and I will feel better. So.... hmm.... happy.....well..... I cleaned up my living room! took down the tree and everything! I even did the dishs! whats eles... oh Taj and olivia's toys are in thier rooms. Everything will be fine. Dont worry so much about things. Im only 22. But fuck my head itchs. I hate dry skin. happy happy happy..... la la la la lalalala you know iether i have a really bad metabolism or all these other girls dont eat. hmm. There are so many skinny girls wandering around the mall today. It sucks. I am going home and taking a bath! and relaxing. even though i need to wash the skeets and blankies. Thats not hard though. Good BYE...for now