I hate getting stuck

This sucks time has gone so fast and ive lost nothing!!!! Why? I keep going from 179 to 177 to 180 to 182 to 179. This is stupid. This is no thanks to Thanksgiving I suppose. I just want to lose it already. I dont know i guess starting right now this instant it gets all cut down. I cant believe i havent posted in a freakin month. i suck. I dont know ive been feelin rewally crappy last couple of days mabey cause my stupid monthly. Ive had my 2 kids already why must i still get that thing? Im not planning anymore. Well I havent really gotten it yet jsut feels like it. I better get it. Im serious. I keep seeing pregnant people everywhere. And Im dreaming about it, and i have been nausios all the time. arrrrrrrrrr. now im nervous. Taj turned 6!! hes so big now. Thanksgiving was ok. But not worth it. I throw up all the next day. eww. What ever. sometimes I think my husband is stupid sometimes.... and annoying. blah blah blah